Why do I even doubt God? Today was a very humbling moment for me. It was my first day going into a 5th grade classroom to teach a science lesson. We teach in groups so it was myself and 5 other girls. I was very nervous because of two things. First, this was my first time teaching in a regular classroom except for p.e. last year. I am used to a small special need class where i do not feel judged or different. Second, i am never sure what kids are going to think of me. last semester in the pe class many of the kids commented that i talk "weird" or "different. i have this nervousness in me that whenever i go to meet new kids they may say a rude comment. with that being said i was so nervous for today because i was doing the main lesson so i had to teach first.
before going into the classroom, this morning i was praying that God would be with me and that everything would go smoothly and allow the kids to accept me with loving arms. let me tell you they sure did. there was not one rude comment and their behavior blew me away. when it came time to the activity we had to walk around the classroom and make sure the kids are doing things right and if they need any help. if i said a word of encouragement or advice they listened and would smile up at me. one girl said i looked really pretty today and another girl loved my necklace and showed it off to her friend. many of the kids knew my name and asked me to help them. i even tripped over a chair (my clumsy self) and one of the boys asked if i was okay and then i joked that i always am tripping over something and we both laughed about it. i would have never expected this outcome.
it brings me to tears how amazing God shower blessings on me. God has called me to this profession for a reason and i do not know why i doubt it. God has placed me with these kids for a reason. i am going to learn so much from them and vice versa. it is just the reminder i needed today that as long as you trust God he will provide. i may have a disability but these kids were able to see past that and treat me as a regular individual. there are no words that can explain how much that means to me. it just reminds me that as long as you love on others, they will love you back. you never know what an impact you will make. even the simplest thing like calling me nicole is so touching. pure and utter joy is all i can say.
before going into the classroom, this morning i was praying that God would be with me and that everything would go smoothly and allow the kids to accept me with loving arms. let me tell you they sure did. there was not one rude comment and their behavior blew me away. when it came time to the activity we had to walk around the classroom and make sure the kids are doing things right and if they need any help. if i said a word of encouragement or advice they listened and would smile up at me. one girl said i looked really pretty today and another girl loved my necklace and showed it off to her friend. many of the kids knew my name and asked me to help them. i even tripped over a chair (my clumsy self) and one of the boys asked if i was okay and then i joked that i always am tripping over something and we both laughed about it. i would have never expected this outcome.
it brings me to tears how amazing God shower blessings on me. God has called me to this profession for a reason and i do not know why i doubt it. God has placed me with these kids for a reason. i am going to learn so much from them and vice versa. it is just the reminder i needed today that as long as you trust God he will provide. i may have a disability but these kids were able to see past that and treat me as a regular individual. there are no words that can explain how much that means to me. it just reminds me that as long as you love on others, they will love you back. you never know what an impact you will make. even the simplest thing like calling me nicole is so touching. pure and utter joy is all i can say.
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