So I have always debated about doing a post on this subject but I always convince myself not to but my hope for this blog is to enlighten others about the disabled community so here it goes...
Let's talk about my speech and how I talk...
This is a rough topic because I never really have told others about this insecurity of mine but I have recently gotten peace about it and I feel like I finally embrace it
You know having Cerebral Palsy it affects your muscles and one of those muscles it affects for me is my tongue. Thus is why I do talk differently. I went to a speech therapists from one I was in kindergarten all the way to about 5th grade. My speech has improved greatly from it but yes I do still talk differently.
So can I tell you growing up and honestly until about a month ago I used to HATE hearing my voice on any recording. It would make me so uncomfortable because in my head the way that I hear myself I sound normal. So then when I go to hear my voice on a recording I'm kind of shocked. like is that what I really sound like?
I really find this ironic because I am a teacher and I talk all day long but seriously I did not read my speech in high school for most inspirational senior because I wasASHAMED of how I talked.
Then recently, I have been doing some real soul searching and I have truly come to the conclusion that I really need to EMBRACE every part of me even the parts that I have hidden all these years. I have realized yes I do talk differently than the "normal" but everyone around me can still understand what I say so why should I hide it?
It may not seem like a big deal but more recently I post snapchats and I talk in them and I am fine with it. Whereas before I would do a video where you hear my voice and I would delete it because I did not like my voice.
I finally feel free of this burden. I think its because I have realized I am who I am and you either love me or you don't that your choice. But first I gotta love myself and that means loving the part of me that I HATED for so long.
I finally feel free to write about this topic and not feel like I want to delete it. Yes having a physical disability means your tongue is affected as well but you know what the Lord has made me a teacher and that means I gotta talk and love the unique part of my speech. I recently did a speech at my brothers wedding and I didn't have any notes I just talked from the heart and in front of 150 people and it felt awesome to embrace myself and just speak without concern of what people thought of my speech or if they could understand me.
If God brought you into my life then he gave you the gift of being to understand someone who speaks a little differently. How cool is that?
Let's talk about my speech and how I talk...
This is a rough topic because I never really have told others about this insecurity of mine but I have recently gotten peace about it and I feel like I finally embrace it
You know having Cerebral Palsy it affects your muscles and one of those muscles it affects for me is my tongue. Thus is why I do talk differently. I went to a speech therapists from one I was in kindergarten all the way to about 5th grade. My speech has improved greatly from it but yes I do still talk differently.
So can I tell you growing up and honestly until about a month ago I used to HATE hearing my voice on any recording. It would make me so uncomfortable because in my head the way that I hear myself I sound normal. So then when I go to hear my voice on a recording I'm kind of shocked. like is that what I really sound like?
I really find this ironic because I am a teacher and I talk all day long but seriously I did not read my speech in high school for most inspirational senior because I was
Then recently, I have been doing some real soul searching and I have truly come to the conclusion that I really need to EMBRACE every part of me even the parts that I have hidden all these years. I have realized yes I do talk differently than the "normal" but everyone around me can still understand what I say so why should I hide it?
It may not seem like a big deal but more recently I post snapchats and I talk in them and I am fine with it. Whereas before I would do a video where you hear my voice and I would delete it because I did not like my voice.
I finally feel free of this burden. I think its because I have realized I am who I am and you either love me or you don't that your choice. But first I gotta love myself and that means loving the part of me that I HATED for so long.
I finally feel free to write about this topic and not feel like I want to delete it. Yes having a physical disability means your tongue is affected as well but you know what the Lord has made me a teacher and that means I gotta talk and love the unique part of my speech. I recently did a speech at my brothers wedding and I didn't have any notes I just talked from the heart and in front of 150 people and it felt awesome to embrace myself and just speak without concern of what people thought of my speech or if they could understand me.
I love it, Nicole! :) You go girl!! Xoxo
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