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Ending the semester reflection

As the semester ends i have been reflecting about how this semester has gone. first off, this semester has been one i was not expecting at all. it wasnt so hard academically as it was personally. this semester has been one fight for my rights after another and i felt like i never got a break. i have had teachers discriminate against me and thinking i was not as smart as i am, i have had disability services blame me for things,. recently i have had an issue with trying to get out of pe for pe here does not benefit me like yoga does. i have had a never ending struggle this semester and i am worn out. it gets hard to consistently have to fight for your rights and sometimes i can only handle so much. but at the same time my parents have reminded me that this is never going to end and i am going to have to fight for my rights for the rest of my life.

i think the reason all of this is happening currently is because it is preparing me for when i do graduate next year and how i am going to face people in the 'real world'. God makes no mistakes in how things happen and looking at where i am now i am a stronger person. i know how to stand up for myself now then ever before. i know that my God is a big God and he will be beside me through every challenge i am going to have to face. my challenges not only impact me but they impact the people i have a challenge with. i am blessed to have family and friends that constantly support me and are there for me in the difficult times.

This semester has also brought great things. i have realized how beneficial yoga is to me. i have surprised myself with how much i have improved and how much stronger i have become. so many people think yoga is about just stretching but they do not realize how much strength it requires. yoga has made such a difference in my life and i am so glad i got involved with that this semester. also through my classes and working with my 5th graders i have realized how much God has called me to the job of being a teacher and i am so excited to work with my future kids and bring them up to have a voice and understand they have the ability to be apart of this society and make a difference whether disabled or not.

there has been many ups and downs but that is life for you. in those joyous moments don't forget to thank God and in those down moments don't forget to remember God is right by your side and will be there to get you through it. in the end, i am blessed with every single moment God has given me.

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