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Sometimes You Have to go with Your Heart

I am a strong believer that everything happens for a reason and that a person can learn from every experience. Many of you have been asking about my job. After careful consideration, praying, and discussing with friends and family i have come to the conclusion that the job did not fulfill what i would like to do.

many of times in our culture we want things now and do not take the time to really think about what we are doing. we get caught up in the moment. and sometimes we need to learn to think things over and analyze who we are and what we need. that is the true struggle of the transition of life after college. all through the 4 years of college we think we know what we want to do but do not really know until we get into something.

through the process of making this decision i have realized my true passion is to work specifically with children who have disabilities. that is what gives me the true joy and those are the moments i feel closest to God. by working in the special needs ministry at my church i have the opportunity to bond and be a support for those kids. something about them just get me. they do not see me as anything different but constantly shower me with love and amaze me.

i know my God is a big God and He is my strength and my support. He has used this time in my life to rely on Him and realize exactly what He has called me to. thus I will be on the job hunt again but this time is different for i have realized i do not need to worry for He has me in His hands and will provide me with a job that will bring me joy. for those of you struggling with the after college transition know that you are not alone. it is rough and you must go through the good and the bad to truly realize where you need to be. like my mom said the key is to never give up but to keep going. as long as you keep going everything will be okay. i find my strength in God alone and I know it will all be okay.


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