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A Very Dry Season on this Path Called Life

As this summer comes to a close I am reflecting on all that i have learned and boy was it a wake up call and filled with lots of ups and downs.

I started this summer off with the idea that now i have my B.A. in Liberal Studies i can easily get a job. no problem...WRONG! it has now been almost 4 months and still no job. i was beyond frustrated at first. thinking what is wrong with me and why is everybody telling me the right job will come at the right time. okay okay i get that but i want a job right NOW. i kept thinking well when you are in my shoes that is not the right thing to say. i am trying my hardest and going to so many interviews and applying to SO many jobs (like honestly probably close to 30 jobs). it gets tiring and annoying when you see other people getting jobs. this was all of my thoughts for the longest time but now i have a different perspective...

God puts us through dry spells and periods of uncertainty/doubt for a reason. There is not a season in this life where you cannot learn things. Yes i have been on many interviews but honestly every interview has been different and i have pretty much experienced every kind of interview you can imagine. as i look back at the first interview i went on i was let's be real...TERRIBLE. i was as people may put it "a hot mess". i didn't know what to say. when asked what my strengths were i immediately listed off my top 5 strengths from the strengths finder test. i just was plain old bad. honestly i see why i didn't get that job! But now i am so much more comfortable in interviews and carry myself with confidence. i have learned to trust God and if that job is the one He will make it happen.

I have also learned more specifically about what to do. instead of doing a moderate/severe credential i will be doing a mild/moderate credential. through talking with other people and experiencing different job requirements i have learned i would rather be a resource teacher. where i can have kids come to me for help and shower them with love and encouragement so even though they may struggle we will get through it together.

Bottom line: i am so thankful to my family and friends who have encouraged me to stay positive during this very dry season. it has taught me to take a deep breath and to really trust that my God is good and all knowing. even though i am a type A person sometimes i really have to let go and let God and to learn through it all. here i was frustrated during the past 4 months but here i am still frustrated i must say but yet at peace cuz i know the Lord has my back and everything will work out even though it is not exactly how i thought it would. i talked with my favorite professor from APU today and she was such a light and spoke to me by saying God is always there guiding you and you will be such an inspiration to those who are in my classroom. that little piece of encouragement just reminded me that God has me on His perfect path.

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