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Update on this blessing called Student Teaching

Hello strangers! I know its been a while since my last post and this is because I am so busy I don't have time to sit down and just write. So I wanted to catch you up on this whole student teaching experience...

Do you ever have days where you think about what is going on in your life and how God showers his blessings over you? It is always my drive to and from school that I think about what my hopes for the day are and what the day turns out to be. Almost everyday my eyes get welled up with tears because i am in such awe of the blessing of being able to do what I want and having my dreams come true.

in the beginning of this student teaching i did a lot of questioning. questioning if i was good enough, if the kids will ever like me, if i will end up hating this experience, etc. it makes me wonder why do i question God? He always provides and blows our expectations that i have learned more and more to not worry (whiich is really hard).

sure some days these group of students push my buttons and sometimes i am at a lost with what to do (i learn something new everyday). but then there are other days where that one student gives you a hug or the tell you that you are a good teacher or their favorite teacher (which i immediately want to cry). those are the days that triumph over the bad days. to know that what you are doing is making an impact. those are the days where you get in your car on the drive home and just cry over the sense of joy.

it also makes me think in the beginning these students saw me as a stranger with a very visible disability to being their teacher that is like any other teacher. oh man i could go on and on about my students but the last thought that comes to my mind is i am the one that is supposed to be teaching these kids but in reality these kids are teaching me and challenging me to be the best teacher i can be. to say i am blessed is an understatement because the Lord sure knew what he was doing when he picked this classroom for me

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