I decided I needed to get back to this blogging thing because doing this student teaching life i realize how much i am learning constantly every day about myself and about others.
last week one of my students told me "my mom told me i need to look up to you because you are an inspiration". hmmm there's that word again inspiration. you know I've never realized how greatly that word is used around me until i was honored with the title of the most inspirational senior at my high school but the more i get called inspirational the more questions arise in my head:
what exactly makes me inspirational? is it because i go through life with a disability? because if it is that then i don't know if i want to be called inspirational.
according to the dictionary to inspire is to fill someone with the urge or ability to do or feel something.
so then i tend to think to myself what exactly is it that i do or am to fill someone with the urge to do something because you see to me i live my life just like you but just a tiny bit different. i don't want you to call me inspirational just because i live an ordinary life but with a disability. because lets be real I've got 99 problems and my disability is just one of them (said from one of my favorite comedians).
the one thing that does come to my mind is that just maybe you see my life and think if she could do it through her own way and through her own struggles than i can do it. but in all honesty i don't want to be called inspirational due to my disability. if my students are inspired by me i want it to not be because i am an adult with a disability living a quote on quote ordinary life but i want it to be because they see that even though i struggle i keep pushing on to pursue my dreams. it doesn't matter if we have an inside or outside struggle but what matters is you keep pushing on to be the best you can be
last week one of my students told me "my mom told me i need to look up to you because you are an inspiration". hmmm there's that word again inspiration. you know I've never realized how greatly that word is used around me until i was honored with the title of the most inspirational senior at my high school but the more i get called inspirational the more questions arise in my head:
what exactly makes me inspirational? is it because i go through life with a disability? because if it is that then i don't know if i want to be called inspirational.
according to the dictionary to inspire is to fill someone with the urge or ability to do or feel something.
so then i tend to think to myself what exactly is it that i do or am to fill someone with the urge to do something because you see to me i live my life just like you but just a tiny bit different. i don't want you to call me inspirational just because i live an ordinary life but with a disability. because lets be real I've got 99 problems and my disability is just one of them (said from one of my favorite comedians).
the one thing that does come to my mind is that just maybe you see my life and think if she could do it through her own way and through her own struggles than i can do it. but in all honesty i don't want to be called inspirational due to my disability. if my students are inspired by me i want it to not be because i am an adult with a disability living a quote on quote ordinary life but i want it to be because they see that even though i struggle i keep pushing on to pursue my dreams. it doesn't matter if we have an inside or outside struggle but what matters is you keep pushing on to be the best you can be
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