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The End & a Beginning

Tonight is the last class of my credential program! Can you believe it? Where did the time go?? It feels like just yesterday I was sitting in anticipation waiting for my first grad school professor to walk through the door. I didn't know what to expect or what God had in store for the next 11 months. However, looking back now this day is bittersweet.
The End

In these last 11 months, I have learned what it takes to run an effective Special Education classroom. I have had some amazing professors that have taught me to believe in myself and to trust that God has called me to this profession. I have made some lasting friendships where they have supported me on the days I felt like giving up. I cannot wait to see these friends get their first job as a teacher and watch them become what we have all studied for.

Additionally, in these last 11 months I was placed in my first elementary school that has grasped a piece of my heart. In that school it was where I became a teacher with the help of my master teacher and the teachers in the surrounding grades. It is where I really learned that the kids love me for who I am and respect me as a teacher. Little did I know that 11 months ago I would be placed in a school for my student teaching that would change my life forever.

Yes, these last 11 months have had there challenges but in the end I have come out of them ready to be a teacher and work with kids the rest of my life.
A Beginning

So now what? Now this is the scary part of being trapped in the unknown. I think being in the unknown is quiet possibly the hardest thing. It is the point where you must be patient and trust in the Lord. However, isn't it our society that we want everything right NOW! I don't want to be trapped and  patient but then I think those are the moments you learn the most. 

So now what you may ask? Well now I sit here at my computer checking morning and night for jobs. I apply and pray that an interview comes up. I know the Lord has the perfect job for me and in this trap of the unknown I just have to sit here, applying, and wait for the job for me (easier said than done). 

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