I don't know about you but when I grew up I always had dreams of a career. I remember I wanted to be a nurse but then I realized there is no way me with my shaky hands and wacky fingers could ever poke someone with a needle. Then I wanted to be an occupational therapist because what better than being a person who has gone through occupational therapy her whole life now show others how to adapt things. But then I thought oh no that would not work. Here I am trying to help someone button when I can barely button my own stuff. HA! It makes me laugh just thinking about it.
So then began my desire to be a teacher. I knew since the 4th grade this was my calling. It was dead set on my heart and it never went away. But can i tell you? Yes I did dream of it but I always thought how can a person like me have a career. I never had a physically disabled person as a role model. I never had someone like me to look up to. I never had someone to show me it is possible to be different AND have a career.
I think that is why i always had it in my mind to tell myself "Nicole, don't get your hopes up. It probably won't happen". So here I was going through college WITH a teaching major but yet a feeling i am wasting my time and money. I think that is the nasty side of being human. You pick at yourself and doubt the God above. Even though I had these thoughts there was something in me that told me to keep pushing on.
I had 15 interviews (yeah let that sink in) but the Lord kept being my passenger on this rollercoaster of life. He was right there through every fit of crying and of rage. Like God how can you give me this desire to be a teacher but yet keep getting rejected.
But look where I am now. There is not a day that goes by either when I arrive at work or leave that I wanna pinch myself because I have a career that i LOVE everyday. My heart explodes with joy every time I take my key and unlock my classroom door.
I did not have a disabled role model to look up to but I sure hope I am that role model to my kiddos now. I sure hope to show every person that told me i couldn't that darn right I could. And I sure hope that I make every person that told me I can proud.
For those of you struggling with your dreams becoming a reality I just wanna tell you God is your passenger in this rollercoaster of life and he is with you screaming right beside you and smiling of joy right beside you. Never give up hope and please just be a positive light in this dark degrading world <3
So then began my desire to be a teacher. I knew since the 4th grade this was my calling. It was dead set on my heart and it never went away. But can i tell you? Yes I did dream of it but I always thought how can a person like me have a career. I never had a physically disabled person as a role model. I never had someone like me to look up to. I never had someone to show me it is possible to be different AND have a career.
I think that is why i always had it in my mind to tell myself "Nicole, don't get your hopes up. It probably won't happen". So here I was going through college WITH a teaching major but yet a feeling i am wasting my time and money. I think that is the nasty side of being human. You pick at yourself and doubt the God above. Even though I had these thoughts there was something in me that told me to keep pushing on.
I had 15 interviews (yeah let that sink in) but the Lord kept being my passenger on this rollercoaster of life. He was right there through every fit of crying and of rage. Like God how can you give me this desire to be a teacher but yet keep getting rejected.
But look where I am now. There is not a day that goes by either when I arrive at work or leave that I wanna pinch myself because I have a career that i LOVE everyday. My heart explodes with joy every time I take my key and unlock my classroom door.
I did not have a disabled role model to look up to but I sure hope I am that role model to my kiddos now. I sure hope to show every person that told me i couldn't that darn right I could. And I sure hope that I make every person that told me I can proud.
For those of you struggling with your dreams becoming a reality I just wanna tell you God is your passenger in this rollercoaster of life and he is with you screaming right beside you and smiling of joy right beside you. Never give up hope and please just be a positive light in this dark degrading world <3
Comments
Post a Comment