Let's be real...Well actually I'm always honest on here. The last four months of life have been hard..real hard.
There has been so many moments where I wanted to throw in the towel and just be done. There has been many mornings where I just did not want to get up. You know that feeling where you just have this gloomy cloud hanging over you and you just cannot shake it off. I look at pictures and see bags under my eyes and this smile where I know inside I am questioning why all of this is happening. I cannot tell you how many nights I went to sleep crying and talking with the Lord about why this is happening. Why have I been thrown all these things at one time?
BUT what I am here to tell you is no matter how hard life is. No matter how many times you want to give up. No matter how deep the bags are under your eyes there is always a light at the end of the tunnel. There is always God there saying everything is going to be okay. I am finally at the end of that tunnel. Where I feel a heavy weight lifted off and I know that my God is faithful because you see you need to not give up because by you just being alive and showing up everyday can make a real difference in someone's life.
I realized the other day that even though this whole school year I have felt like a failure God opened my eyes. Lately, my students have been speaking love into each other's life. They compliment each other and they help each other when they can. They hug each other and hold hands without any hesitation. How beautiful is that? That even though the first four months of this school year has been nothing but chaos they still learn to love each other.
This week is Valentine's day and even though people make it out to be a romantic day I choose to make it a time where I speak love and show love to the important people in my life. Just like my kids we need to speak more words of love and life into others without hesitation because every time you do it is an instant smile on their face. Even in the chaos and gloomy clouds there is a way to show love and to find that little glimmer of hope. Today I am thankful that I have 8 little valentine's that remind me of the beauty of this world and to freely love with no hesitation.
There has been so many moments where I wanted to throw in the towel and just be done. There has been many mornings where I just did not want to get up. You know that feeling where you just have this gloomy cloud hanging over you and you just cannot shake it off. I look at pictures and see bags under my eyes and this smile where I know inside I am questioning why all of this is happening. I cannot tell you how many nights I went to sleep crying and talking with the Lord about why this is happening. Why have I been thrown all these things at one time?
BUT what I am here to tell you is no matter how hard life is. No matter how many times you want to give up. No matter how deep the bags are under your eyes there is always a light at the end of the tunnel. There is always God there saying everything is going to be okay. I am finally at the end of that tunnel. Where I feel a heavy weight lifted off and I know that my God is faithful because you see you need to not give up because by you just being alive and showing up everyday can make a real difference in someone's life.
I realized the other day that even though this whole school year I have felt like a failure God opened my eyes. Lately, my students have been speaking love into each other's life. They compliment each other and they help each other when they can. They hug each other and hold hands without any hesitation. How beautiful is that? That even though the first four months of this school year has been nothing but chaos they still learn to love each other.
This week is Valentine's day and even though people make it out to be a romantic day I choose to make it a time where I speak love and show love to the important people in my life. Just like my kids we need to speak more words of love and life into others without hesitation because every time you do it is an instant smile on their face. Even in the chaos and gloomy clouds there is a way to show love and to find that little glimmer of hope. Today I am thankful that I have 8 little valentine's that remind me of the beauty of this world and to freely love with no hesitation.
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