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I am ME and I am Finally FREE to Be ME

Last week I had dinner with one of my best friends who has been through a lot of ups and downs of life with me. We were discussing about where our lives are at now and how at the age of 25 we have accomplished so much. Then I began to realize something. That I am at a point now just like the quote where I realize it is all happening. You know growing up I thought that I would be married at age 25. Well, that ain't happening but what is happening is freedom. You know those moments where you realize wow my God did have a plan that I never could imagine. 

You see this whole living on my own at age 25 is exactly what I needed in my life. Because now I not only realized that I could have my dream career that I have been fighting for the last 10 years of my life but I can also live independently. Maybe thats why I thought I'd be married already because I thought I would have to have someone to depend on and help me in my life because surely I can't do everything on my own. Ha! Now I realize I can with the Lord as my pillar of strength and trust.

In these last 5 years of having this blog I have said a lot about owning who you are and not letting your disability define you. But I truly don't think I wholeheartedly believed that. I think it is one thing I tried to convince myself of but inside I always had that fear that I couldn't do something or I would be judged for my disability. But let me tell you..NOW. right now. In this moment. I embrace who I am. I am a strong independent successful woman who happens to have a disability. Yes I have this disability and it is who I am and you can either love me or be afraid and not interested in knowing someone who is different that you. That is YOUR choice. Because what I have realized is that the Lord will bring me those people that will love me for who I am. I think I am at that point where I no longer have to prove myself. This is me and I am no longer going to hide behind a fake smile but rather enhance my smile because I am free.

This move to living on my own has only been a month but it has been a month of learning and loving this new side of life and thanking God for being faithful and letting me truly love myself and not needing approval anymore. This life is HAPPENING and I will rejoice in knowing that I am capable of reaching dreams I once doubted.

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