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Life is beautiful and God is good

Hi friends!

I know I know it has been quite a while since I last posted. You know sometimes life just swipes you away and you get caught up but I wanted to come on here and give you a little life update/what I have been learning.

I don't even know how to put it but sometimes God gives you opportunities that you are afraid to take to say yes to but after you do you understand exactly why He presented it to you. Ever since I moved out I have found a new joy and a new me. I have found myself in moments where I should be dragging because I don't sleep (aka Masters life) but instead I am just pure  giddy and smiling. Because how are you ever going to grow or change if you don't grasp at the unknown? When I signed that lease for this apartment I had so many fears and thinking oh no what am i doing? But as I write this my eyes are filling up with tears because now I finally see someone who is capable and who is able to be independent. Living on my own was the one area of my life that I didn't know if I could check that box off. I didn't know if I could live by myself with no one there to assist me if I couldn't open something or if I couldn't do something (I mean let's be real I even killed a huge spider or moth or whatever it was a few weeks ago). But here I am almost three months in just living out this extremely beautiful life.

They say the 20s are where you find yourself and here I am 25 and I think I have found myself. I have moved on from a person that has always had the thought of but you have Cerebral Palsy your not going to be able to do it...to oh girl you got this. If you could have a career and live on your own there ain't nothing to stop you from dreaming. Because friends just because I and my fellow CP people are different does not mean that we can't accomplish our dreams.

On another side note I have found this amazing thing called hot yoga and it has changed my life. To some it may just be yoga but to me it is medicine now. Let me tell you my muscles and body feel so much more relaxed and not so tight. I have noticed I have gotten stronger and when I should be tired I am not as tired. Additionally with my new self I am okay with not being able to do every single pose but I can tell you one thing. I have already been able to hold some poses that I could not in the beginning and its only been a month and a half.

I just want to leave you with this. Life is beautiful and God is good. If God hands you an opportunity you better take it no matter how scary it may be. Also to all of those out there that doubt yourselves stand tall for you have a God that is for you. That is waking you up every day saying hello my dear live this day for me, shine bright, smile, and no matter your doubts I am here and I know exactly what I am doing.

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