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Save the Coffee!

Alright friends we all know I am very real on here so let me tell you about my real life and things I sometimes forget to talk about.

This last weekend I was in Colorado for my best friend's bachelorette. I think I have told you all before that I take medication for my shakiness. I have to take pills three times a day (morning, afternoon, and night). Now let's be real sometimes I forget to take my afternoon pill and the last weekend I had forgotten to take my afternoon and night time medication. So here are the side effects...I become really shaky. So the following day the girls and I hit the downtown and got some coffee to warm us up. Well I think that I have already told you that carrying open drinks is not good. aka beware it will spill so if you combine that with not taking my meds...hot mess alert.

The girls started walking and I tried to catch up but I was just spilling my coffee all over me (yeah these are my hot mess moments). But what was different about this one is usually I would start getting frustrated with myself and be like "come on Nicole catch up". But instead I almost got a calming sensation over me where I thought to myself just slow down. It will be okay this is who you are and you are just going to have to walk slow with your coffee. It was the weirdest feeling and one I have never felt before.

But then I began to think of how far I have come with my mental thinking. An event that used to frustrate me so much turned into an event of acceptance and not worrying how different I am. (also the girls did notice like a minute or two later and waited and helped me..love those girls).It made me realize to slow down and be okay that you have to do things a little differently than others.

Because we all have good days or bad days and for me I have my stable days and my shaky days and you know what that is okay because on those shaky days I am reminded to slow down and to do things a little differently.

Who would have thought a cup of coffee could turn into an eye opener...

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