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Ain't It Funny How Life Changes

"Ain't it funny how life changes. You make plans and you hear God laughing"...Thomas Rhett.

That song speaks such truth because I definitely made plans and God changed that all around.

3 months ago I found myself in a state of grief because my future plans all crumbled to pieces. Literally every piece of my future that I had planned out broke. I do not think anything can prepare you for grief. I think grief is a process and a journey and I do not know if you can ever really get over grief. It will always have a slight tug to your heart.

Hello quarantine and hello a broken-hearted Nicole. I have learned a lot about life and a lot about my God throughout this time. I have learned that it is okay to have some days where you just cry and don't do anything for that day except have a box of tissues by your side. I have learned it is okay to be angry as well and to express that to God. I have learned to process through emotions one moment at a time and one day at a time. That life is not always about looking to the future. I have learned who my tribe of people are and who I can count on to listen love and support me through a time I was not prepared for.

I have also learned that at some point you have to rise up, face the world, and be filled with joy again. So here I am telling you in whatever stage you may be in it is okay to go through all the emotions and the Lord will guide you to finding that joy again. So let me tell you the story of how faithful my God is.

My apartment lease in up the first week of July. So many of you know how I love my apartment and how special it is to me because it is the first place I lived by myself. My rent has gone up significantly so I was having such a hard time thinking about leaving this apartment because so many factors about my apartment just work for me. However, it has been on my heart to look for a condo/townhouse for something i can own. I started the process in the beginning of May. Looked at quite a few properties and found the one I decided to buy (this was the third property I looked at and i kept going back to it even when we saw new properties). Single story, attached garage, close to my yoga studio, closer to work (by like 5 minutes lol), gated community and so many more positives. I just kept leaning into the Lord and really trusting in him that this was the right move. Everything just kept going so smoothly that I couldn't deny that this was the path the Lord has for me and I praise him oh so much.

Life changes.

Change is a good thing.

Change shows just how strong you are.


Did I ever predict at the age of 27 that I would be buying a house by myself?? Definitely not. I am still processing where my life is at and what my God has planned for me. But for right now I am praising my God for giving me a new chapter in life and that hope is again on the horizon. I am here and I am here to continue to trust my God.


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