Let's be real with one another. I'm not going to sugar coat this. Having a physical disability sucks and sometimes I wish I did not have to endure what I do but the Lord is continually working in me to keep being strong and to show others it is perfectly okay to be different.
World Cerebral Palsy day was last Wednesday and it got me thinking a lot about my life thus far. You know that day was to shed a positive light to the fact that those with CP are perfectly capable but are often times judged and assumed to be dumb before they even get a chance to prove that person wrong.
I cannot tell you how many times this has happened to me and it actually just happened to me recently. Usually I try to stay on the positive but sometimes those things as hard as you try still get to you. Here I am a perfectly capable woman getting beat down by some people who just are not exposed to the capable disabled individual. I then wish like why God? Why did you give me this disability? Why can I not be cured? If I didn't have CP, would that person like me? What would my life look like without my disability? Why can't I just be seen for who I am and not be seen as how I walk? These are the negative thoughts that have entered my mind lately. All because of one person recently for judging me for my outside walk.
As I have been praying and lost in thoughts lately the Lord has given me little reminders. I am reminded that the Lord has blessed me with a strong spirit where I have been able to push through and to fight for my dreams. I think it is a little ironic that I teach kindergarten because I used to say no way do I want to do primary. I think today the Lord has revealed to me why. Because in kindergarten I can inspire these 5 year olds to be more than what society says they are. That hopefully when they get a little older and their words get harsher they can remember that we should not break down those who are differently abled and instead build them up because their kindergarten teacher has a disability and was able to get a career and succeed at her dream.
I need to remind myself that everyday I go to work these 5 year olds accept me for who I am and never question the way I talk or walk. I need to remind myself of the freedom my work gives me where every staff member and child smiles and loves me despite what I may look like on the outside. I need to remind myself to keep this blog up in hopes that it will influence and change the mindset of another person. For those of you reading this, it is my hope to help you to change your perspective on those who may be different on the outside because when I look at myself without the negativity of this world I see a woman who is just your average 24 year old that loves fashion, going out with friends, wants to get married one day, and has a career where my students teach me joy everyday.
World Cerebral Palsy day was last Wednesday and it got me thinking a lot about my life thus far. You know that day was to shed a positive light to the fact that those with CP are perfectly capable but are often times judged and assumed to be dumb before they even get a chance to prove that person wrong.
I cannot tell you how many times this has happened to me and it actually just happened to me recently. Usually I try to stay on the positive but sometimes those things as hard as you try still get to you. Here I am a perfectly capable woman getting beat down by some people who just are not exposed to the capable disabled individual. I then wish like why God? Why did you give me this disability? Why can I not be cured? If I didn't have CP, would that person like me? What would my life look like without my disability? Why can't I just be seen for who I am and not be seen as how I walk? These are the negative thoughts that have entered my mind lately. All because of one person recently for judging me for my outside walk.
As I have been praying and lost in thoughts lately the Lord has given me little reminders. I am reminded that the Lord has blessed me with a strong spirit where I have been able to push through and to fight for my dreams. I think it is a little ironic that I teach kindergarten because I used to say no way do I want to do primary. I think today the Lord has revealed to me why. Because in kindergarten I can inspire these 5 year olds to be more than what society says they are. That hopefully when they get a little older and their words get harsher they can remember that we should not break down those who are differently abled and instead build them up because their kindergarten teacher has a disability and was able to get a career and succeed at her dream.
I need to remind myself that everyday I go to work these 5 year olds accept me for who I am and never question the way I talk or walk. I need to remind myself of the freedom my work gives me where every staff member and child smiles and loves me despite what I may look like on the outside. I need to remind myself to keep this blog up in hopes that it will influence and change the mindset of another person. For those of you reading this, it is my hope to help you to change your perspective on those who may be different on the outside because when I look at myself without the negativity of this world I see a woman who is just your average 24 year old that loves fashion, going out with friends, wants to get married one day, and has a career where my students teach me joy everyday.
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