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Hello! I'm right here

The other day my mom and I were shopping in Kohls. When we were in line to checkout I was browsing around still looking at the clothes. I would pull out different tops I like and show my mom. When we were almost to the front I joined my mom in line. There was a lady behind us that looked at my mom and says "She has really good taste"... Um hello I'm right here! Tell me that. I then said in a loud voice "why thank you"

Let me tell you this happens more often than you would think. People look at my mom and tell them something about me when I am standing right next to her. It's like they don't even see me. They think I am dumb and do not understand them because I physically have difficulties. I am a strong 24 year old woman that has to constantly fight for individuals to see me and to talk to me like a regular human being.

I hope that lady caught on that I do understand and she should think twice about seeing a person like me.

Yes I can get frustrated about this situation. Like come lady please don't ignore me but I also need to remind myself that this is life and life is not easy. The way I see hope at the end of the day is I hope I exposed that lady to a person that has a disability but is completely functional like someone who does not. My hope is she sees that people with disabilities may struggle on the outside but our fine in the inside.

I hope she will look at the next person she sees with a disability in the eye and acknowledge them like they are valuable.

Because let me tell you when you talk to my mom and not me. That hurts. That tears you down. That makes you feel incapable. Yes these are negative thoughts but thats what happens. I just need to remind myself I was a tool to help her see value in those that she encounters next.

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