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"I'm lucky because my scars are on the outside"

"I'm lucky because my scars are on the outside"

Um wait. Hold up. What did you just say? Today I came across this show called "First Dates" (yeah reality tv. the weirdest but interesting show). There was a guy who suffered from 3rd degree burns and so he had scars all on the front part of his body including parts of his face. He was very vulnerable and open with the girl he was on the blind date with. He then goes yeah I guess I'm lucky because my scars are on the outside and majority of people have their deepest scars/insecurities on the inside.

Um cue the lightbulb.

I just began thinking well that is true in my world as well. My deepest insecurity is on the outside. Everyone can see that I am different than the "normal". Yeah you may not know what it is like to live with a disability but you certainly do know I suffer from something. But the part that truly hit me is he said he was lucky for that.

Do I consider myself lucky for having CP?

I don't think I do. Yeah I am a very open person in regards to talking about my disability but I don't think I would say I'm lucky because to be honest it is a whole lot easier to hide your scars on the inside and only let a few people in to know about them. I don't know if this is because lately I've been really hating this Cerebral Palsy thing of mine and I'm not gonna lie lately I've been frustrated with how tight my legs muscles are from all the walking I've been doing. I've been frustrated with my hands for being tense and not able to grab things easily. & Let's be real I would love to just see what it is like to be a normal person without this CP.

I do want to say thank you to this random show I came across and that guy who said that line because I know I am going to sit on that quote for a while and try to grapple with how I feel about it. But for now my feelings are all over the place and it's like opening up a can of worms.

I would love to know your thoughts on this quote!

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