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The wheelchair that frustrates you but yet helps you


You can LET GO now my dear.
You are now capable. You do not need me. I know how hard it was for you to walk around the mall or the store or Disneyland or the park but now look at you. You walk 10,000 steps a day. You are constantly on your feet walking with no assistance. You can walk around Disneyland and go for hikes without feeling weak and tired.

I have carried you since you were young but now you can fly and this seat I have will remain empty because now, my dear, you are STRONG. You are a warrior that can accomplish miles you never thought were possible. You are not disabled but beautifully differently abled.

Love,
Your dusty wheelchair


My walker, my stroller, my wheelchair were all things that made me feel different. They were the constant thing that said you need me because you are not capable of walking far distances. I don't think I could explain what it is like to wheeled around and just have so many people look at you. You know they are wondering why you are in a wheelchair. Why you are not capable to walk on your own through the mall. I would HATE it. Always being looked down upon and frustrated as to why I would get tired so easily. Why I can't just walk around and not grow weary.

I used that wheelchair heavily until I got into high school. I don't know what the shift was. Maybe because I had to walk a lot everyday in high school and my endurance built up or because I started working out more. There never really was a moment where I was like okay I'm done with that wheelchair. but oh how beautiful it is to see that I walk miles I never thought were possible. I walk so much at my work and I can go on mile hikes. Like what? Sometimes life goes so fast that you don't sit down and reflect. Because of my beautiful friend Monika Izing I was able to look at these pictures and reflect on what I have overcome.

Some people like to say it is a miracle of where I was and where I am now but I don't see it that way. Because you see there is something in people with disabilities that is stronger than others. The Lord has given me the strength and the ways to overcome obstacles. 
The fact that my wheelchair now is covered with dust is a beautiful reminder of the journey the Lord has put me on and how with him I can knock down obstacles and freaking I can run, walk, hike, without that wheelchair. I can officially LET GO. 

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