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Do you want to be cured?

One thing I love about one of the my best friend, Lexi, is the open conversations we have. She is the one person that asks the questions a lot of people are afraid to or the just don't bring it up at all.

Recently, at dinner we talked about how a lot of people ask "don't you want to be cured?" or we experience our student's parents wanting a cure for their child's disability. Here is my response...

Yeah it would be nice to not have a disability. Do I pray that God helps me to walk better, clears the way I talk, or stops the tenseness of my hands? You betcha. Do I wish I could experience just one day of what it would be like to be "normal"? Heck yes. However, here is my BUT

But I don't know what life is like without CP. CP is who I am. I can guarantee you I would not be the person I am today if I was cured. You see this question I think is different than asking someone who has cancer or has come down with a disease because those people know what life is like without that something affecting them. I don't.

Yes, CP sucks but I look at my life and I see the beauty of how God has "cured" me over the years. The fact that I could only walk with a walker and needed help with everything and now I am completely independent is my cure.

So parents out there who have a child with a disability I understand you want your child to be cured but your child would not be the beautiful person they are today. I just want to end this with saying oh my goodness yes I would love for there to be a cure for CP but I do not want to be cured because the Lord is moving mountains by allowing me to impact my students lives because I am showing them to choose JOY in their disability and do not spend everyday wishing for a cure.

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