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Everyday I'm Struggling

I don't know where your life is or where your heart is at but these last few months have been hard.. It has been filled with a lot of challenges and ups and downs. Sometimes you think you are ready for something and then you dive in realizing you are drowning and doing the doggy paddle just to survive. You wake up everyday and look in the mirror and see those terrible under eye bags and think will these ever go away? But I wanted to write this post about a few things that have happened lately.

About a month ago when I wrote that posting about words really do hurt I was already struggling and when that happened I just broke. It was hard for me to stay positive and I was dragging getting up in the morning. Well, that night I got home and I was scrolling through my instagram and I came across a post that said

God is sending help. Don't worry. Hold on.


I remember thinking okay okay yeah God I have been asking you to help with this situation for the last two months. I am tired. 

Well I am not lying only 5 minutes later I get a call for what I was asking help for. Um cue the water works again but of happy tears. 

Now don't get me wrong I am still struggling with a lot. but I came across that post again today and I was reminded that God is ever faithful. That life can really be hard and you get trapped in a whirlwind of tiredness, frustration, and negativity. God is there. He sees your hurting,I worn out soul. He sees your confusion of what to do next. He is right there feeling your pain of missing or wanting someone this Christmas. 

Hold on.
Don't worry.
God is there.

Everyday lately I am struggling but God is struggling right there with me. I see the struggle around me of finances, job insecurities, relationships, self-consciousness. I think why am I struggling so much this whole year. I just got lunch with a friend I haven't seen in a long time and we were talking about how hard this year has been. It has been a year that I will gladly put behind me when 2018 comes but then I also think about how my God has never forsaken me and He is there and only He knows what will come of the situation so hold tight my friends and don't worry God may be sending you help right now in a way you never thought was the solution.

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