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Bittersweet Day

Today was my last day working with special needs at Sunday school. It was such a God thing that I had the opportunity to work there. it gave me the reassurance of my passion to work with special needs and become a teacher. my heart hurts from having to say see you later to the workers and the kids. especially after a day like today.

There is a boy with autism that i work with. he is non-verbal and takes a while to warm up to you. today i felt our bond become so strong. he listened to me when i told him it was snack time and he had to come sit by me at the table. we have been working with him to say please when giving us the snack so we can open it for him. today he said please both times to me. it brings tears to my eyes even thinking about it become it showed me how much God is assuring me that ii can do this profession. then throughout the course of the time he would listen to me and i could calm him down if he had a frustration. he would give me his amazing smile or hold my hand. it was truly the perfect day to end on. bittersweet that now as he is comfortable with me i have to leave him but at the same time it was God letting me know i did make an impact.

i don't know what it is but individuals with disabilities tend to gravitate to each other. there is that special bond that no one else can know. i think it is because we all have difficulty witth people seeing us for who we really are. we all struggle with something. sometimes when i am weak the other is strong and vice versa. i think that is why God gave me this calling. he gave me this gift of having a disability so i can be a voice for those who have disabilities too. i can feel for those individuals like this boy that has a hard time communicating but i can therefore speak for him to others because i know how it feels in certain situations. there are moments in your life where you are just amazed and joyful. today was one of those moments that i know a purpose. it just reminds me of how much people need to be shown love and given a chance. everybody needs a chance.

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