Skip to main content

Some funny and beautiful moments this week

It is so interesting to me how great of conversations and insights i learned. First, i want to talk about my psych class. my professor wanted to know why we chose the profession we are in. i began to explain how i can connect with others who have a disability because obviously i have one. i was proud of myself for saying that because it showed me how much i have grown in my confidence of having a disability. a while ago i would not have mentioned my disability at all. i think it is because i have realized how important it is for me to mention so people understand i am not afraid to talk aout it and also those conversations need to happen. i talked in the beginning and maybe it was just me but i felt like more people were being more personal in their response. maybe because i was but it almost brought me to tears hearing how open people were.

Second, my math teacher came up to me after class and asked me if bringing my computer to take notes would be better. i was super excited that she wasn't afraid to ask me something.

Third, i was walking with my friend the other day and she noticed that a girl walked by and was staring at me. i did not see her but my friend then brought it up when she passed and we had a great conversation about how i feel. i just smiled to myself thinking how much i love it when i can have an open and honest conversation with people about being disabled. more of that needs to happen. i just thank God for those conversations.

Lastly, something funny. i went to a zumba class on saturday. i was kind of nervous if i was going to be able to do it and if people were going to judge me. of course i stood out like a sore thumb because im a tall girl that has no good sense of movement. but there is other older women in the class that struggled also. it made me wonder why i was nervous. of course i cannot do things like others but as long as i try my best that is all i could do. but let me tell you i sure was sore!!! my muscles work much harder to do something than a normal person so just doing one hour of zumba is like doing 2 hours for me. but oh well.  i just am happy i did it and its good for my muscles to get stronger so things wont be as hard for me!

Comments

Popular posts from this blog

Pregnancy & Birth

 Hi there! I know I do not blog on here on a regular basis anymore but my baby is napping and I wanted a place where I could remember the beauty of my pregnancy and birth. So here we go... June 20, 2023: I found out I was pregnant! Cue all the emotions (excited, nervous, scared) and the now what!  June-July 2023: I had just switched to my husband's insurance so I didn't have a doctor or anything. Luckily, with Kaiser I was able to get in pretty quickly. You see I wanted to be seen pretty quickly because I was on medication. I have been on medication since I was 15 for my spasticity/shakiness in my hands. Mind you I was 30 when I found out I was pregnant so I have been on this medication 3 times a day for half of my life 😲. I had no idea how my body would react to being off of it or even the process of getting off the medication. At first I was getting varying opinions about whether to stop cold turkey or to stay on it. Eventually, I spoke with my neurologist (who I wasn't ...

You talk funny

So I have always debated about doing a post on this subject but I always convince myself not to but my hope for this blog is to enlighten others about the disabled community so here it goes... Let's talk about my speech and how I talk... This is a rough topic because I never really have told others about this insecurity of mine but I have recently gotten peace about it and I feel like I finally embrace it You know having Cerebral Palsy it affects your muscles and one of those muscles it affects for me is my tongue. Thus is why I do talk differently. I went to a speech therapists from one I was in kindergarten all the way to about 5th grade. My speech has improved greatly from it but yes I do still talk differently. So can I tell you growing up and honestly until about a month ago I used to HATE hearing my voice on any recording. It would make me so uncomfortable because in my head the way that I hear myself I sound normal. So then when I go to hear my voice on a recording I...

Acceptance

For those of you that follow me on Instagram or Facebook you have probably seen my yoga videos that I have been putting up. On the recent one I had a friend comment about how much she loved my openness and confidence. This really got me thinking about what a road I have been on to get me to where I am at today. Back when I was a senior in high school I got nominated the most inspirational senior. Now when you are nominated for this award you have to write a speech and make the speech in front of the whole school at an assembly. I remember when I first found out I started bawling. Like what? People think I'm inspiring? At that time I was NOT comfortable speaking about my disability. In fact I couldn't even read the speech my principal had to because I was a wreck and was far from confident in myself. Even halfway through college I was not comfortable mentioning my disability. It was like the BIG elephant in the room. It made me nervous and I thought people already see that I...