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Never Stop Dreaming

Today as I sat in the office of my academic advisor registering for my classes for my MASTERS of Special Education I could not help but just realize how the Lord has walked beside me and clung to me saying you can make it my dear.

 As I walked away from my appointment I could not help but feel emotional. I have been fighting for my rights in education to be treated like a "normal" human being my whole life. I have so many people tell me I am not going to make it. They judge me for my outside and assume I am incapable mentally.

I asked my mom later did you ever expect me to be going for my Masters? She answered me honestly and said when you were little no I did not but since you have been in your 20s it doesn't surprise me.

My advisor asked me today why I wanted to be a special education teacher and this is what I told him.

Hope
Individuals with different abilities need hope, love, and encouragement that they can become confident, independent, and beautiful people if they try and push themselves. That is why I love teaching kindergarten because I am the kiddos first experience of an adult with a disability that went through a hard road but is successful now. 

I get to give hope to the parents. Yes, parents, I see you. I see the hurt in your eyes when I first meet you because you have a child that is labeled. But I can give you hope that your child can be independent and successful if you push them. 


So as I enter this new phase of getting my Masters I am reminded that through God anything is possible. He alone has given me the strength to keep going when the negative comments and perspectives get in the way. Did I expect to be 25 going into my 3rd year of teaching and doing my Masters...no. I knew I wanted to go down that path but I didn't know how or when but God did and I am so awestruck by how amazing our God is. 

Never give up on your dreams my friends. Keep chasing them. 

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