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This Summer

As I go back to work tomorrow I like to reflect on what this season of summer has meant to me. The theme that stands out to me is this season I learned to be in love with who I am and where I am. I learned Jesus is the love of my life and we could go nowhere without His love.

The month of June was filled with adjusting to the quiet, low key life of summer. It was trying to learn what God had in store for me this summer. It was starting a new Bible study book with some new girls and preparing myself for Kenya and celebrating my best friend's birthday. It was a month of adjusting and figuring out what to do.


The month of July was a month of realizing I am enough and I am called to inspire those around me by which I learned in Kenya.  It was learning that I am truly not ashamed of my disability and realizing God has given me the strength to be proud of myself and showing that God can make anything possible. I turned 25 this month and that was a scary number. I used to say I would be married by the time I was 25 well obviously God has different plans and I have come to acceptance with knowing God is in control of my life and it is not my plan but His... July wrecked me. It opened my eyes to so much hurt and how we need to love others more and speak words of love, strength, and positivity.


The month of August was slow but the Lord gave  me this time to reflect on my life and to truly lean on Him. It allowed me to process through what I experienced in Kenya. I think it really allowed me to be present and look at the life around me. Recently, I have found one of my biggest blessings is the small group I lead and how we have become such good friends and every Monday night I get to gather with a group of ladies and laugh, cry, talk with them. For the past 3 months I had been praying God gives me a core group of support and I have found it in this group.


& I don't know friends. This summer I experienced rejection, ashamed, hurt, disappointment. BUT through all of that I think I have found myself. I have found to love myself and I am beautiful just the way I am. I have found that Jesus is my rollercoaster ride buddy and He is right there in this rollercoaster ride of life. If you truly surrender to Jesus He will move mountains in your life. Life is beautiful and you only have one life so why not speak life and beauty into this world

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