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I am Glad it Happened

Today I was listening to a podcast called I'm Glad It Happened by Elevation Church and it sure was a sermon I needed to hear. In fact I was moved to tears for it targeted my life and my biggest struggle which is my disability. There are certain things he said that I wanted to discuss in my blog.

 "I am glad for my weakness for it has made me strong"

Hmm isn't that true. My disability has made me strong. I would not be the strong independent woman I am today if it weren't for my Cerebral Palsy. My weakness has given me fire to keep going and never give up no matter what others say.

"I am talking about the thing people say sorry for. It happened for God's glory"...

Oh my goodness does this reign relevant in my life. This happens to me quite often with new people I meet where they say oh I'm sorry you went through that or I'm sorry you have to live with a disability. That is one thing I just do not like. Don't say sorry this is my life. There is nothing I can do to change it and in fact my Cerebral Palsy happened for God's glory. I can sit here today and show people how amazing my God is. Doctors did not think I could live an independent successful life. In fact they thought I wouldn't even be able to walk. Here I am working a full time career, traveling to different parts of the world, driving and doing everything completely independent. To God be the glory! because without my God who knows where I would be. It's all because of the Lord that I am where I am today! 

"I am not glad about the pain but I am glad about the purpose"..

Yes Yes Yes!! Am I glad about having to live a different life than others? Am I glad that I have to go through things that "normal" people don't have to (like doctors appointments, therapies, medication)?? Heck no, there are definitely times when I wish I did not have to have a disability but this statement is so incredibly true. For if I did not have Cerebral Palsy I would not have the purpose for living everyday and having the career that I do have. I am a special education teacher for the purpose of inspiring others who have disabilities that they are capable of fulfilling their dreams no matter what others say. For it is my disability that I have purpose in this life. 

I am glad it happened. Even though that is hard to say this sermon brought me aware how true it is. I am glad it happened. 

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