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You can't

When people tell you...you can't.
When people judge you for your physical disability

What do you do?

Do you give up? Do you throw in the towel and say you're right?
NO!

You fight back. 
You find your inner strength. 
You become a warrior. 
You become stronger than you think.
You choose to breathe in your identity through the Lord.
You choose to let those comments become your fuel.
You say to yourself that you are capable
You hear the Lord say "oh my dear you can"
You remember you were given this disability to advocate for others
You remember you are enough
You are differently beautiful

You know I thought the older I get the more numb I would be to when people judge me or say I can't but I don't think I will ever be able to handle those comments without a sting to the heart. So yes I might shed a few tears. Yes I may have to remind myself that I am different and that some people just may not understand. 

You give yourself a few minutes of weakness and then you pick yourself back up. Because that is what you have done all your life...You keep fighting for your worthiness. You fight not only for yourself but for others like you. If you let those comments get to you where would you be? You certainly would not be where you are today. 

So yes I may get knocked down but 
I will get right back up.
Because I know my God makes no mistakes
He is my creator and I am perfectly made in His image

Even though others may call me imperfect and not valuable.
So bring it on.
I got my armor and I will not give up
I will continue...

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